Well, I just say that I am not good friend. Because I really hate chat on communication media. Such as Line, Kakaotalk, Whatsapp, Viber, etc. Because I’m too lazy for replay your messages. It isn’t important talk. Such as ‘what are you doing?’ ‘hey, I have good news’ ’ hey dude, I have bad news. Do you wanna hear?’ Of course NO! Why I said that? Because I don’t know how to cheer you up?! I am not good at that. So if someone say that I am her bestfriend, I think they should THINK about it (why I didn’t write his [refer to boys], because I didn’t think I have boy friends)
It is really late and I am too lazy for re-write my task. And it must be done tomorrow!! Well I can’t focus because of too many miniseries I wanna watch. The play role, of course is Benedict Cumberbatch. I am curious his movie. And I lost my focus haha… I really like him in “Parade’s End” BBC Miniseries. For the first time I saw Sylvia (played by Rebecca Hall), I don’t like her! Hate her because she is unfaithful to Christopher Tietjen (played by Benedict Cumberbatch) and she is a whore! What a dumb she is!! I don’t understand with her, she have a gorgeous, great, kindly, and lovely husband. And she was unfaithful to him?!! What a ridiculous lady! (sorry, I know it just movie lols). Instead of Sylvia, I chose Valentine (played by Adelaide Clemens), another woman in Christopher’s life because she really loves Christopher and she can make Christopher laugh and nervous XD. And this miniseries has taste with the wardrobe and the setting which is I like XD British!!!
And this miniseries can be my reference for English Literature class.
Anyway, yesterday I had so much fun with my friends. After we slept over in my house, then we decided to hung out. We never plan it before. It comes naturally. We went to Old City (Kota Tua) and we were sad because the Fatahilah museum was closed. Under construction. Then Febri gave her suggest, ‘why we didn’t go to Ragusa Ice cream Italy? My friend told me that ice cream is really delicious and I wanna taste it.’ So our next destination is Ragusa Ice Cream. But this is funny story began.
Actually, we wanna go to Monas first, but I forgot the route. After we got wrong way, we back from the main road and choose the other way. But wait, we find Ragusa restaurant!!! We never thought we can find it and came first. So we parked our motorcycle and entered the restaurant, what a surprise. The restaurant was full of people who ordered and there is no table left for us! Then we just ordered 2 ice cream (banana split and tutti frutti, which I ordered this one) and after we got our ice cream, we decided to eat outside but there was one table left ahaha so we were hurried to got that fast before anyone else got it.
The ice cream is really really delicious and not melt fast like usually. My tutti frutti tasted? It was reaaaaaaaally fresh and little bit bitter, but I like it. And what about the banana? Yes, of course we ordered banana. I think it is the smoothest banana ever I tasted haha…
After that, we went to Monas!!! Our last destination. We just walked around and find this toy xD
Hahaha… it is been long time I didn’t play this amazing thing. After that, we walked around again and decided to rent a bike. We wants one bike for 3 person but just one bike for 2 person left. Because Chyntia’s leg is injured, so it just me and Febri riding it around Monas.
“Hal yang paling menyebalkan adalah, ketika temanmu meminta tugasmu untuk melihat contohnya, lalu pada akhirnya dia copy-paste tugasmu. Itu sangat sangat sangat menyebalkan. Apalagi mengerjakannya dengan susah payah -_________- shit man!”—
Bad day!!!! I had bad day for 2 days. First on Thursday, I came late for Mrs. Diar’s class. So I got back seat, alone. Then I looked at white board, recognized the words. It’s too small for me!!!!!! I can’t see it clearly. And then she (Mrs. Diar) asked me to find another idiom words. I can’t see that words! Gah!!! So, I didn’t got the score :(
And the second day, on Friday. It’s really really make me frustration. I got crazy traffic!! FOR 2 HOURS! Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand first class is Mrs. Diar too! D-A-M-N! I decided to not present on her class. Hufh!
So this is feel. Feeling alone. Just finish some good movie and til looking around then realize that so quite here. Just 5 of us. After my dad with 2 little sister went to Dad’s village. And I already miss her so much. We are so really alone. No boy. No Dad. And I feel so pity to my Mom.
You know, when you feel just your family. Far away from BIG FAMILY. It’s like you lived with small family. Just you, mom, dad, and the sisters. Meanwhile you used to live with grandma too, but now she’s not here anymore. Gone. To the God Side.
I know it’s overacted, but I miss them who left us. Dad, sister, brother, and especially Grandma. You’re really close to my family. Why you gone so fast? T.T I miss you badly.
I felt like other person, have been stay away from we. Just think that my grandma, who connected us with them. God, she’s a good grandma, good person and Super Mom for her children.
And for my Dad, God, save him wherever he is. Keep him healthy, joyfully, and Allah SWT always bless him.
And I feel so small with this situation. And scary too :(
I don’t know where I must start to do. I just feeling, “I wanna go away from you all”. Just like that. Like I wanna ignore them. Won’t talk, won’t say hi, and won’t chat. Just knowing some good news. I-W-O-N-T!
Why I wanna do that? Because they didn’t respect my kindness. Well, am I too overacted? No! Am I too arrogant? BIG NO!
I just wanna they’re having good communication with my family. Having good relationship. I was good at their family. ALMOST HAVING GOOD CONVERSATION WITH THEM! I tried to being nice, welcome and heart-warmed. But what about them? Did they doing what I did? NO!
As you know, they’ll meet my family if I asked and brought them to my family. IF I ASKED AND BROUGHT. If I didn’t, they won’t DO WHAT I DID TO THEIR FAMILY.
We are friends. For LOOOOOOOOOOOOONG time ago. Having 7 years relationship. But but but but! They’re not too close to my family like I do. BUT THEY ARE MY BESTFRIEND!! How can they do like that?
And it’s like what I did it’s just wasted! Idiot! And also I am visited their house, met their parent, a year for many time. But they? *sigh*
And it happened to my ex-boyfriend. Ugh! He’s looser and suck! I was close with his parent, his sister and his friends. But he just close to my friends. SUCKER!
So, that’s why I was looking a guy who very welcome and close too my parent (especially my dad), my sist & bro. And he must very welcome person :)
So! Should I ignore them?? Or just disappear for a week. OR! Do not replay their message.
Well, I’m so disappointed. That’s what I feel now :(
I don’t know where I must start. It’s about my job. Crisis. I went to my office everyday, nothing to do!!! There’s no job I got. Usually I do, everyday was busy. Order for booking flight. But for now, nothing. Just 2 or 3 names :(
And it makes me dizzy. Finally my boss warned me to what-I-am-to-do-to-keep-this-company-going-up.
I just thinking about that ‘thing’. Because I realize that I didn’t feel what I feel since my junior high school. Never been happen to me again. The way you feel like have a heart attack, feeling nervous, dumb (haha I’m sure it just me), and until now I’ve my future is like.
The way he staring at me, like I’m beautiful girl on his eyes. His hands touch me, my hands, my face, my hair, my chin, and everything he touch just make me insane.
When we are together, holding hand and staring each other. No one words can spell out. We just silent. Talking heart to heart. Like we’re connected.
The way he makes me smile, laugh, comfortable, cooking me some delicious food, and caring much. I dream about it. Forever have.
When he speaks, his voice so sexy (lol). When he touch me, holding me everynight, hug me like a little kid by her father, so warm and safety. I imagine.
We always likes everything we are. We have crush everyday. We share anything until nothing we have. We are like the moon and the sun. Helping each other when we getting down.
And I realize, that Allah SWT (my God) have other plans for me. He create someone for me. And I’m praying that he must what I’m dreaming :)
“I’ll always choose you.” Yes that was the word. “Every single lifetime, I’ll choose you. Just as you have always chosen me. Forever.”
It’s 00.39 AM in Indonesia, and I don’t know my eyes wide open haha… Anyway it’s my first period day in this month. Too late for me. And I still gaming, chat on skype, and tweeting. Hahaha too much activity in late night. I can’t sleep because my stomach.
I hate people who thinks that they know more what I am feeling or thinking. But the truth isn’t!! So, what should I do with this, a suck people??